full circle

It's amazing how life's fate can turn out to be. How old pain can come rushing back through in just one single drifted thought... and how youthful love can give out joyful glow back again. Old feeling has come in full circle and i wish i knew then what i know now.. but life can only be understood backwards and no matter how smart you think you are, there's no way of knowing exactly what the future holds. Yes, you can hope for the best and prepare for the worst but you can only do so much and in time you will still have to face whatever life offers in front of you. Ready or not, you get to take it on! Dwell, fight, think of best ways to move forward.

It's funny... very funny. It was painful, it really was. I was hopeful, hoped for something more. Had more, even more than i expected. It waned, yes i lost the feeling.... and yet gained it back again?. It's really funny. Life is full of surprises.

we're survivors - We're the Keeper of the Flame

lyrics from Survivors that very much describe us at this point in time....

I’ll never know what brought me here,
As if somebody led my hand,
It seems I hardly had to steer,
My course was planned.
And destiny it guides us all,
And by it’s hand we rise and fall,
But only for a moment,
Time enough to catch our breath again.

*and we’re just another piece of the puzzle,
Just another part of the plan,
How one life touches the other
Is so hard to understand --
Still we walk this road together,
We try and go as far as we can,
And we have waited for this moment in time,
Ever since the world began. *

Taking in the times gone by,
We wonder how it all began,
We’ll never know and still we
Try to understand,
And even though the seasons change,
The reasons shall remain the same,
It’s love that keeps us holding on
Till we can see the sun again.

And I stand alone, a man of stone,
Against the driving rain--
And the night -- it’s got your number,
And the wind -- it cries your name --
And we search for clues, win or lose,
In this we’re all the same --
The hope still burns eternal,
We’re the keeper of the flame--

Back to where home is

He's back to where home is... is it for the meantime? is it for good? do we sail together? or travel towards individual dreams? I see a happy face and joyful soul this time. I see pride and sense of fulfillment in his eyes. I am happy for him... and i'm very happy to have him back here in Dubai.

After two years of not being together every day of our lives, with just frequent visit to Manila and 6 months stay here with me and back to Manila again to finish one of his life's projects.... he's finally home.

It's a different feeling again. I wake up with a hot coffee waiting for me. I come home to a warm hug and sofa snuggle. Little things that matter to me and things that i have gotten used to and missed for quite some time but make a lot of difference in my everyday life are back!

Throughout these years, i've grown and learned many lessons... being alone made me a lot stronger... somehow, being away from each other had allowed us to fly on our own utilising what's available around us.

... we're now back to where home is - 'us'