Yes, i'm grateful

When i moved to our Corporate Office almost a year ago, i told myself, now that i am no longer in our prorperty hotels and away from the daily marketing operation i can manage my time better. So, i decided to take a marketing course at the Knowlege Network - Chartered Institute of Marketing. With so much fervour i made sure i'd get into the course by September. I asked my company to support my education and after some deliberation i finally got it.

I was so excited!! It's been 10 years now since i graduated from the university. My boss told me that she a difficult time when she did her studies on the same course. Another colleague of mine told me the same. I thought, how can it be so hard? it's easy to understand besides we're already in the marketing world.

I am not studious at all. I love learning but i hate reviewing for exams.. especially when i'm forced to memorize stuff. So, my challenge began..... they're right!! it's difficult!! Firstly because i have not been in school for 10 years (it's such a long time). Secondly, My studies is not my life anymore as how it used to be when i was in the university, so it's hard to change my schedules to accommodate study time. I miss my favourite tv shows, i stopped exercising (and gained more weight!!), i also find it hard to maintain our house and i miss those bonding times with my husband. Thirdly, with the evolution of technology our minds have become lazy.... we don't even memorize numbers because they're stored in our phones, we don't even try to remember appointments because our alarms will go off anyway to remind us.... Getting used to all these, i find it hard to retain stuff in my head. The things i memorize last Friday and Saturday are but a vague memory.... The effort to keep them in my head is doubled or perhaps even tripled.

I miss going out and see movies or be with my friends. I see their photos and how i wished i could also jin them when they go out. How i also wished i could go with Benet and her friends when they go out of town on weekends to do photo shoots.... ohh well.. i have so many things i want to do. I guess i have to just suck it up and finish my study then.. move on to the next one. One at a time....

Yes, i'm grateful for this opportunity given. Yes, i'm thankful to God for giving this to me - i asked for it, now i am in it, so i will treaure it.... it's just good to get some disappointments out from my chest. ahh!!